Friday, September 15, 2006
sigh
life in hall sucks sometimes.
i have no idea how the new hall system is like now.
initially, due to the distance from my home to school, i was pretty sure getting a room wouldn't be much of a problem next year.
but kelvin keeps telling us to
'stay active' in hall.
it then prompts me, being the president of jcrc, was he afraid that nobody would be involved in hall activities?
anyway, now i'm in 1 main com, 3 subcoms and 2 inter-hall sports.
apart from the responsibilities and duties assigned, what made things worst is the canvassing part.
you see, being the gl for next year's orientation, i've to pay $150.
being in the main com for dnd, i've to pay $250.
and the fucked up thing is, i've to find 4 subcoms each paying 100.
it's like, we're being exploited to pay whether you're in the sub or main com.
so in order to clear these 'debts', we've to do part-time jobs where the money earned would go to clearing the 'debts'
it's totally outrageous and inane.
term tests are in bout 3weeks' time.
sigh.
it's all bloody screwed lah.
or rather, i'm the freaking screwed one.
who pissed me of further was shengjie.
perhaps it was me, having expectations from him right from the beginning.
sigh.
i've read/heard(i don't remember) somewhere that anger is usually the cause of having expectations that aren't met.
so i guess i'm at fault.
and i didn't know iris is such a sweet girl (:
someone has been leaving things outside my room.
yes i've to admit that its a really sweet gesture.
but i don't know if it's making this better or worst.
i'm aware of the effort put in.
and am appreciative of these moves.
i really am.
but things like that are always full of complications.
if there are expectations that come along with such actions, then i think it's going beyond the limits.
back in meridian, you know that the teachers are behind you all the way, willing to work together with you.
here in ntu, you're left forlorn to withstand all pressure and workload that's piling up in haste solely.
and as usual, it makes me nostalgic and emo all over again.
believe it or not, i was home sick earlier this week.
all these upheavals and uncalled-for situations seem to be pushing me into a confined space.
how am i going to survive...
things that you'll never understand.by the time you do, it would have been too late.
take me with you
9:16 AM
